Day 5 of my Self portraits

I sat here trying to think of something interesting to talk about and have come up with nothing. So I figured I am going to take this moment and talk about you my friends. I always find it strange that anyone would want to read about what I am doing besides my family. I guess that is the voyeur in us because I love reading about other people and have found through some of the blogs that I read whether a friends or someone I have never met some great ideas. It could be something as small as a scrapbook idea to dealing with personal issues.
Overall I don't share really personnel things on here but in general I keep a lot to myself. I do have my core group of girlfriends that do get some of my dirt and I am thankful that I have them to share things with and offer me some great advice. Some are close by and it's just a 5 minute drive see and others I need a plane ticket so we have to settle for phone calls. You girls know who you are so thank you from the bottom of my heart.
I think everyone needs people outside of their family. As much as I love my husband and kids sometimes I just need a few hours away to regroup and yes sometimes to vent. Then I can go back to them renewed and ready to jump back into my role as wife, mother and all the other things that go along with it such as nurse, maid, counselor and well you get the picture
So this post is dedicated to the girls in my life that I have laughed with and at times cried with and also to the girls that find me interesting enough to just click on my blog chances are I read your blog also.

I told you that I would post the bad

What am I thinking even taking this picture of myself much less showing it. This is what I look like at 3am in the morning. Not I pretty sight believe me I know. Why am I awake at 3 ? I was asleep in my nice comfy bed when Daren got up to leave. He has some thing he is going to today that is up in the bay area. I'm not exactly a happy camper about him going in the first place. This group he is involved in has been a sore subject between us for awhile now. But I was only half awake and had plans to go back to sleep. No such luck. I can't even count how many times Daren walked in and out of the house before he left which woke up our dog who has been sleeping in the bathroom since his surgery last week. 10 minutes of barking I finally had enough and took him outside to try and go potty then back in the bathroom to sleep. By this time I am wide awake and really not a happy person. I didn't finally fall back to sleep until after 4. Really having a dog recover from surgery is almost as bad as having another baby. So not only did Daren go on a trip I told him I didn't want him to go on because he has been away a lot lately, he left me awake for hours because he woke our dog.

Day 3 of my self portrait

First let me start this by saying you are all so sweet. The response I got in comments and emails was fun to read. This whole challenge I put on myself is really just that a challenge for me. As soon as I posted what I was going to do I wanted to undo what I had just said. I am not brave at all, this is so outside my comfort zone that I am amazing myself. I am a quite person when you first meet me that some people sometimes mistake for me just being a snob. But I really am not. And it is something that I am really working at overcoming and have had a lot of success. You should have seen how I was years ago. Really when I look at myself 15-20 years ago to who I am today I see a different person. But I do still have a long way to go.

Update on yesterday's missed call. No they never did call back and yes I did try to call back. I talked to a very nice girl at Harpo and she said that unless they left an message for me or I had a name she couldn't really help me but if the number comes up on my caller Id again to be sure and answer it. Well "DUH" of coarse I'm going to answer it. My family has been instructed that if they are on the phone and call waiting goes through with the number they are to answer it. I think I will make this an exception in my call waiting pet peeve. Yes call waiting bugs me. If I'm on the phone I will usually ignore it unless I see it is from the school or the kids or hubby if I know he is driving somewhere. All other calls can leave a message if they want me to call back. And it bugs me that my husband is one of the worst offenders of putting me on hold or rushing to get me off the phone because he has someone on hold or another call is coming through. Just let me leave you a message and call me back. That is one of the main reasons I don't bother calling him half the time.
Oh and to the many questions about what my email to Dr Berman was about. She is a sex therapist so yeah it had to do with that. Daren read my blog probably for the first time and said so you are broadcasting our sex life in an email. No it wasn't really about our sex life. The topic was mainly about my crazy hormones and how it has affected me. So yes technically maybe it was about our sex life because my hormones do affect if he is getting any that day or not.

I can't believe I missed the call

I have spent the morning trying to get something done. I don't know how many times I have walked into my scrap room and then walked right back out. I have been distracted all morning ever since I looked through my caller id. Got out of the shower with grand ideas for the day. Do a little cleaning and then let some creative juices out. I picked up my phone and was going to clean out the caller id numbers when the first number that pops up is from Harpo Inc. I only know of one Harpo so right away did a reverse number look up and sure enough all the names that came up under that number were from Oprah. What do I do call the number back with no idea who to ask for or wait and hope thy call back? Wait why did they call in the first place? I remember a few months back while listening to Oprah radio and hearing the sex therapist Dr Berman talk about something that kinda hit close to home but didn't quite cover what I have been going through. I decided what the heck the first email I ever write and it's about my sex life. Maybe they will go through the huge pile of numbers they probably have in front of them and I will get another call one day. But for now I will always think of my missed call from Oprah ( yeah it wasn't from her but close enough)

This is me

I took out my camera to take some pictures of the boys playing but instead I plopped down in the grass and turned the camera on me. Wow the camera caught it all. Where did those wrinkles come from? Maybe I should start looking into Botox....... um no. I will say that I am my own worst critic, I think it is a woman thing being able to find the tiniest flaw that someone else may not even notice. So I am going to challenge myself this week and take a self portrait every day... The good and the bad days. I will post a picture every day and maybe in the process give you a glimpse at a little part of me that maybe you didn't know.

This is what happens when you lay in the grass with a dog nearby. Thankfully he was only sniffing around and didn't decide to give me a big wet kiss.

Where have I been

I know my blogging has been horrible the last few weeks. It is the last few weeks of school and life is crazy so here are just a few things that have made me neglect the blogging world.
Little league~ really how did I do it all those years with Ashley some days I feel like I am a slave to this sport.
State Fair~ I think this is payback from the teachers just because they want to make our life a little more crazy. This is by far one of the most dreaded projects in all of elementary school.
And then just when I see the light at the end of the tunnel our poor baby Baldy had to be a dork and try to eat a corn cob. And my dog isn't smart enough to chew no he swallows things whole. We didn't know it was a corn cob until the vet pulled it out of his intestine. Yes he had surgery. I was not a happy camper because well it is not cheap to do this but also it means that he got a corn from someone other then us. I know this because my boys have braces and I do not make corn on the cob. So that means it was thrown in our yard from someone.

There have been other things like trips to Disneyland, open houses, track meets and a trip into LA to have lunch and see a Dirty Dancing. But I'm not going to bore you with every little detail. Summer is coming and we have lots of fun things planned so I will have lots to share then.

Happy Mother's Day

I want to wish all my mommy friends a wonderfully Happy Mother's Day.
I am in awe when I see pictures of my babies when they were so young and then to see my family today. They grow to fast and I want to absorb every little detail.